[Because he's terrified. He's absolutely fucking terrified, that's why. He doesn't tell them that though. It takes him a while to respond due to weeping.]

Why was I tricked into delusions of grandeur...? I've been born believing I was everything! I can't let go of that! I won't accept that I'm weak! I can't afford to be broken again!

[Broken from what? His current meltdown? The past he never had?]

Why did I have to be saddled with something that doesn't exist? My imaginary friendship with the only person I thought... had...