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They're not dead.

Less dead than they'd felt, at least. Their shell doesn't normally take so long to reform.

Then again. Their shell doesn't usually break of their own violation as they ascended in a boiling rage, ate at least one realm, a god, and all the Godseekers.

(That last point is debatable, actually. There's some odd sense, deep under their...shell? Void? Wherever they once stored things like Isma's Tear, much deeper now...that the sea-mind is still there, sluggish and held in a stasis. They're already adjusting enough, and they don't seem to be dying or trying to kill them, so that problem is neatly sorted as 'for later'.)

They push their body to stand. Their horn clangs uncomfortably loudly against the grate they've apparently woken up beneath. They're somewhere in the Royal Waterways. A quick check of the map--or, not so quick, as it takes time to locate where it had been--shows they've risen about halfway through, closer to the City of Tears than the White Palace. They'll go to the Stag Station in the City Storerooms next.

So they think. Complications arise on the way.

The Infection is gone, leaving dead Flukes, Pilflips, and Hwurmps in piles enough it takes time to force their way past. Their body seems too small. No, their body is fine--there's something wrong with perception itself. That will take time to adjust to.

Then, they discover the Monarch Wings now stretch and warp when used, twisting around the nearest pipes after landing before the Knight forcibly calls them back. Shade Wings, they decide to call these.

Once they're high enough to hear the rain above, they realize a noise they'd ascribed to water running in the distance is, in fact, something swirling behind their mask. Many somethings. All the fragments of Siblings with enough self left, staring out from their eyes. It's disconcerting.

By the time they actually get out of the Waterways, they're using their Shade Wings to grip ledges and drag themselves up, with those holding onto things better than their own arms are with the Mantis Claw.

The Knight faceplants awkwardly onto the floor of the building Lemm's shop is in. If the City is the same as below, there's little left to try killing them in the area.

They'll just take a moment here, thanks.

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For a minute he thinks he's somehow been rude by asking, that familiar feeling surfacing that he simply doesn't know how far is too far until the words are out.

But then the long stare finishes and Lemm shoves the feeling back under. He has more leeway with the Knight. Before they got chatty he thought it was just something he could get away with. Now he thinks it's because they let him, which is a bit different.

"Hm." He peers at the map with sudden curiosity. "Is there someone living all the way out there, then?" Could be foreigners, like him. Or... Lemm narrows his eyes. "Recent, or still?"

The Knight gives a slight nod, which clarifies precisely nothing, and they pull close the nearest supplies to write.

They consider beginning with a factual list. That is simpler. They can keep distance between their thoughts and emotions when they need. (Or--could, once. It's getting harder.)

But they must be careful with this.

Another lengthy pause.

Discussing this needs to be kept private.

He stares at that sentence for a moment like he's uncertain, and glances at the tray of history notes.

"Personal, is it," he half-asks. His tone is measured.

Lemm slides the tray away from them both as a deliberate gesture. Whatever they're about to say, he won't record, though maybe it won't even be history-related. Could be about to tell him they broke a relic while he wasn't looking.

"Don't expect me to burn after reading, though. You handle that yourself."

The gesture is appreciated. Their answering nod is nearly a bow.

Writing out the title Lemm knows would be clearest. (Maybe they will burn these papers later.) But they can't. They won't. It has historical importance. Here, it deserves no respect or acknowledgement in confidential conversation.

Against all probability, my tallest Sibling lives. They nearly didn't. They are hidden away with Deepnest's other survivors.

It's short, and he reads fast.

"Your tallest -"

With a jerk of his head, his eyes snap to the window. No, surely not that one.

Who else, though?

Lemm stares them in the face and tries to get his voice working again.

"I passed the empty Vault, you know." He sounds almost conspiratorial. "Didn't linger. Didn't seem much point." That, and it made him feel gravely unpleasant. "You - would - ah..."

Lemm settles a hand on his forehead and stares down at the words, thinking hard. Private, they said. Probably inappropriate to ask too many questions at this point. But he has to say something.

"With - who? What survivors? Wait! No. Wait a minute. You're reporting this to a Relic Seeker and telling him to stay his quill. Why?"

That one.

Their response is ugly, by necessity, though they decide against too much detail just yet. Hornet had theories with their sibling's wounds. The Knight's attempt at repair gained their agreement.

Recovery. ~~I do not know~~ They are severely injured. The source of the Infection burned through them.

I believe she was attempting to form a physical body in the upper half of theirs.

He winces. Lemm is not affected by much - dead bodies, grisly accounts in journals that end up sounding like horror stories, there's a lot that doesn't bother him - but he's not untouchable. His hand covers his mouth automatically, and he stares at the words with barely-withheld horror.

"That's not anything I..." He clears his throat and attempts to steel himself. "I'm not a doctor," he sharply insists. "If there's an emergency, you're wasting your time with me!"

They've asked Lemm not to record this, so they specifically are not telling him for historic record purposes, so: why? Lemm is suddenly watching them very closely indeed.

The Knight shakes their head and underlines 'Recovery'.

They are unlikely to die of their wounds now. There are others around ~~to tend to other~~ but I try to visit and assist.

Their sibling could die of something else, whether they're around or not. With Hornet and Herrah on higher alert, and their own attempt to bolster their sense of, if not self, having a chance, they believe anything self-inflicted now has lower probability.

I thought you would like to know. I'd rather you find it from me.

"Ah! Good! Obviously. I'd be no use in-" Just his mistake to talk over their second line, but he stops in his tracks as soon as he reads the first part of it. "Oh..."

He'd had a concern there that something might be expected of him - it would have been setting him up to fail. It's a relief this isn't the case. More than that... The Knight is just telling him. Because they thought he'd like to know.

What.

Lemm attempts to rally his usual level of acrimony and only half-succeeds.

"Well. Correct. The Hollow Knight lives, that's relevant to my-" not to his work, he already agreed on that, can't use that as a get-out-of-jail-card "-to me."

His posture closes in a little, and he looks away - it's very foreign to say exactly what's on his mind, and he obviously doesn't like the way it tastes.

"It is relevant to me. But you didn't have to tell me a thing. I'm just someone who spent too long staring at a statue."

The Knight simply taps their last two lines.

They know. They're capable of keeping secrets by nature--by design. And they choose not to. Lemm's partly put-on harshness is not the same as unnecessary, pointed cruelties. They have no wish to keep it as a potential shock for later. They've found they can trust him with their words, and they trust him with this much.

"...Get well, then. Or - no, don't pass that on. Urgh." Eyes locked on the writing, Lemm rests his head against his hand, and one finger taps his forehead as he thinks on how to explain himself.

The Knight has a lot to handle. Lemm's got nothing to offer but stories, and none of them have ever been his. He would like to be part of something. It's a mean little thought, that.

"I won't breathe a word," he says simply.

The reassurance is appreciated.

Perhaps Lemm can meet their sibling one day. They won't taunt Lemm with that, however. They don't know how long that recovery could take, or what their wishes about visits and travels might be in the open future.

For now, the Knight slices off the bit of paper they'd wrote on and quietly tucks it away. The rest of the paper remains--they'd rather not waste a limited resource that belongs to someone else.

Now. They sit up, attentive. They're ready for other questions.

Right. Things are moving on, and thank goodness. Lemm takes a firm grasp of the part of him that's getting invested and holds it underwater until it stops moving.

"...I guess," he starts, a little wobbly, "if you aren't running off, we have some time to work. I'll be back to citing you as long as it suits."

Luckily he's prepared a mental list to fall back on. Makes it easier to steady up.

"Monomon the Teacher. Tell me what you know."

Moving on, before one of them tries to discuss further than needed.

Monomon...they don't know much about the Dreamers. Enough to know she's a more complicated one. They swirl the tip of the quill around the inkwell for a moment, thinking. (They add a mental note to check the Archives again. They'll likely forget, but it's worth a try.)

Monomon the Teacher. Apparently head of the Teacher's Archives. Dreaming inside, guarded by countless Ooma and Uoma, Charged Lumaflies, and one giant intelligent being similar to the former creatures, known as Uumuu.

Decided to enact additional protection. Used some sort of spellwork on her mask that left her impossible to reach with the Dream Nail alone. Her head and upper body appeared to be missing/intangible?

The mask was entrusted with Quirrel. They draw a loose sketch, adding Monomon's mask atop his head last.

I do not know their exact relationship. He holds her in great esteem. He took the mask and left Hallownest, losing most memories in the process. He returned around when I did with just as little understanding of his origins here, though it seems some came back over time, or were buried and surfaced(?) We met periodically in our travels through Hallownest.

Quirrel said she "called" him for that reason and believed she may have "called" me as well. (This was not the case.)

Monomon explicitly desired for for the Seals to be broken, discovered through the Dream Nail after the mask was returned.

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Lemm's finger taps restlessly on the desk as he reads whatever they're putting down a bit faster than they can write it.

"The see-through things? Unpleasant to look at and to touch..." The mask talk gets a slow nod. "I saw that one pass by, I think. Very conversational." By Lemm's disapproving tone, he probably didn't reciprocate. But he has something to impart here, and as soon as the Knight looks like they've come to a stop he holds up a hand - or rather holds it over the paper since that's what they're looking at.

Lemm takes up his quill and, daringly, puts his pen to their paper at last. He underlines 'do not know their relationship', and does nothing else.

"You wear one, Knight." Lemm finds he doubts that they have the context, somehow, so he swiftly continues so that they can. They ought to. "A face is something to address, first. If you've none of your own, putting on a mask gives a bug something to look at. Taking up someone else's..." He is careful with his words, more than usual. "...You carry them with you, and you do it on purpose. I never asked him, mind you." He points his nib at the underlined bit again. "Keep it that way unless he talks first."

He moves swiftly on from that advice.

"Monomon saw the truth first, then, I'd wager, or else she broke first. Somehow I doubt it was the latter. But you're writing in present tense," he points out, and taps the page with his non-quill hand. "She lives, too, then?"

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They lean back to give Lemm room, staring at his underlining thoughtfully.

They weren't planning on pressing; they rarely need to bother. Like they told Lemm prior, many trust them, or don't worry about their presence enough to shut their mouths when they would with others. They have some doubt that Quirrel would act so massive-mandibled now, knowing so much more than before about her, and some about them. They'll just have to wait if there's a chance.

But that isn't why Lemm is telling them this.

After he speaks the rest of his piece, the Knight stops to set a paw on their mask, resting beneath one eye. The one where their biggest sibling mask had had shattered under the Radiance's strain. The side their Lost Kin's missing horn had been snapped off, well before they stumbled across their corpse.

The Knight dips their head.

I believe so. The Archives were locked recently. She or Quirrel had to have done that.

Herrah the Beast is alive in Deepnest, still acting as Queen over its few survivors with Hornet's assistance. She's had much recovering to do after waking. Monomon could have similar problems.

Their brief mask-touch reassures him he was right to speak up. Nothing worse than telling someone something they already know. Except not telling them something they don't, maybe.

"Two of the Dreamers live," he recounts. "The Hollow Knight lives. The Lord of Shades emerges from obscurity and haunts my shop. Weavers are still in Deepnest. Next you'll be telling me there's a bug waiting outside to take back his real estate."

Lemm shakes his head humourlessly. Learning this information is valuable, but it also means there are more sources for the work he's doing. Which means:

"I'm going to have to speak with them, aren't I. It's a fine mess I've gotten myself into."

They doubt at least that, and shake their head to indicate as much. Not many City survivors, unless this turns out to be Sly's shop from the past. They'd prefer that not to be the case.

(No matter they're the Lord of Shades and that he set down his Nail, he destroyed them more times than they'd like to admit in Godhome. They'd rather not get into a dispute.)

Hesitation, looking to Lemm with their quill hovering over nothing. They...don't know if he should. It's still unsafe, and they inform him of such.

Deepnest is unwelcoming. They're still few in numbers, trying push against the Mantids. Their collective health is lacking and they will likely be defensive.

I do not know about the Archives yet.

He's quick to emphasise: "I don't mean right now! Just how foolhardy do you think I am?" Besides, it's a terrifying prospect. Herrah the Beast. Sounds like she might eat him. Maybe he'll send a letter.

Lemm heaves a sigh, though, and resigns himself before the Knight can talk him out of it. (Still kind of hoping they will, but alas, some things must be done.)

"There are other pieces to Hallownest's past than just yours, unfortunately for both of us, and now I know they can speak for themselves. If you're wanting a proper account I'll need to make some visits." He looks vaguely unhappy about it. "Besides that, Monomon's a Teacher. No doubt if I present this wrong I'll find a copy of my work on my doorstep, torn to shreds and put back together with red ink."

The Knight is still skeptical. That's good to know, though.

You act annoyed as though you're about to go over without notice. I thought I should make sure. The ruins

--are why he's in Hallownest in the first place. He had to have gotten down here somehow.

Lemm should be fine. They don't need to be...concerned.

They awkwardly waver, considering crossing out the start of the sentence. It's too late. The words are already there. Irritation and embarrassment spikes their writing into something a little more messy.

--are particularly dangerous where Cornifer couldn't reach.

"I'm not stupid." Hackles are up, a bit! Lemm folds his arms. "And I told you I don't go in for idol worship. It's good advice, but I'll go where I like. Not you nor that stuffy stick-in-the-mud up in Dirtmouth can do a thing about it."

...He knows he's being petulant, and missing the point. Too late now. Just like the Knight, the words are already out. Old habits have him cranky even when there's serious business afoot.

"You act like you think I've never left my shop."

They could, and they barely refrain from pointing that out, because he knows they probably wouldn't. They don't want to ramp up old anxieties about the Lord of Shades.

Elderbug worries. I think that's somewhat sensible of someone in his place. Was Dirtmouth just him when you arrived as well? While they're trying to move away from their own concern, the curiosity behind the question isn't false. They don't know how long Lemm's been here. With the strange stasis keeping the likes of Hornet and Nailsmith alive (setting aside Quirrel), it could be far longer than they've previously thought.

...No answer-back? Lemm is almost too surprised to stay peeved. He stiffly nods.

"Just him. I've never been back, but the mapmaker stopped by a little while before you did and let me know he'd be about. Bought a journal off him. I think he'd rather have sold me his work."

Well, he has now, technically, with the Knight as go-between. Cornifer might wonder who it was for unless they told him - and that suits Lemm well enough.

He's not quite done being salty, though. "Ordinary bugs like C- the cartographer and I are capable enough."

Irritation rises above their own unexamined feelings. If Lemm insists on not moving on, the Knight will oblige. Cornifer had gotten through plenty of Hallownest--and he'd been hiding and terrified of being eaten in one of the places Lemm wants to get more information from.

I found the corpses of other bugs who must've thought the same. A lot of them made it far. I sold some of their journals to you.

He narrows his eyes. "And? Why do you think I read them so carefully? You learn what killed the first nine bugs to walk in somewhere and you're probably not about to be the tenth!"

Deep down he wants to remind himself they're well-meaning, but he can't just let it go, not when he can feel his pride sizzling at the idea they might think he's fragile. (And he is when compared to a grand shadowy Lord. What must he look like to them, really?)

"If you're the type to go looking for relics, you don't last long if you don't have common sense. But you don't go looking at all unless you're prepared to take the risk. Understand?" He makes an irritated sound and flickers a hand dismissively. "You obviously want the story told, and I want to tell it properly. I'll do what I have to. But I won't stick my foot in an Aspid's nest."

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begrudging respect!

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